waiting
like ivy, I’m gonna crawl
over your windows, up every wall
like sunlight, I’m gonna pour
through every crack around every door
I’m not gonna knock darlin, I’ll walk right in
I’ll take off my shoes, I’ll invite all my friends
drink all of your whiskey, fall asleep in your bed
I’m gonna make myself at home in your head
like sugar, baby I’ll be sweet
but darlin I’ll still rot your teeth
like a cigarette, I’m gonna burn
set fire to every dollar you earn
I’m not gonna knock darlin, I’ll walk right in
I’ll take off my shoes, I’ll invite all my friends
drink all of your whiskey, fall asleep in your bed
I’m gonna make myself at home in your head
I’m hanging my pictures on the walls of your skull
thought maybe the color might distract from the dull
black and whites of your brain, baby
why doesn’t your answer ever change, baby
like blood I’m gonna run through your veins
like a sunset at the end of the day
you’re what I’ve been waiting on
sure as the day is long
maybe its just bad luck
maybe I just fucked up
like a prisoner to my bad intentions
maybe I just need the attention
like ivy, I’m gonna crawl
over your windows, up every wall
like sunlight, I’m gonna pour
through every crack around every door
I’m not gonna knock darlin, I’ll walk right in
I’ll take off my shoes, I’ll invite all my friends
drink all of your whiskey, fall asleep in your bed
I’m gonna make myself at home in your head
I’m hanging my pictures on the walls of your skull
thought maybe the color might distract from the dull
black and whites of your brain, baby
why doesn’t your answer ever change, baby
bible belt
I’m angry like an addict who’s as sober as a bird
while I smile and laugh and tell myself
that someday this won’t hurt
I’ll bite my tongue til it bleeds
crawling round on my knees
yeah I keep both hands in the pockets of
a wealthy stranger’s jeans
but you can’t lose your head and keep your wits
I can’t lose my head over this
I’ve seen lightning strike in the sunshine
and I’ve been breathing fire out these windows of mine
and I bet all the birds roll their eyes
when they see the ways we pretend to fly
but you can’t lose your head and keep your wits
I can’t lose my head over this
“its only hell if you make it”
well tell me
is there a hell for the faithless
underground
you got eyes like the sky in mid-July
I’ve got a heart like a black hole
its always heavy but its never full
you won’t run won’t escape its pull
all the bodies of the boys that came before
laying lifeless used up on my floor
all the hearts I stole in a trophy case
all the love I’ve lost written on my face
I’ve got a goddamn good thing going
I’ve got knots in my stomach nonetheless
I’ve got a need to put pen to paper
darlin when I’m dead I’ll rest
can I do right can I be right at all
I’d still wait by the phone if you never called
and fall asleep with your number dialed
oh I never was free but at least I was wild
and lately I’ve been having such strange dreams
what’s really strange is I’m dreaming of mundane things
I don’t wanna go home but I wanna lay down
I wanna get high and live underground
I’ve got a goddamn good thing going
I’ve got knots in my stomach nonetheless
I’ve got a need to put pen to paper
darlin when I’m dead I’ll rest
nothing ever gets to me
nothing ever gets to me
til there’s no one beside me
when I lay down to sleep
and I’ve spent half the night
stumbling drunk tripping over my feet
darlin nothing ever gets to me
don’t you worry baby
I can make it, I’ll be fine
got pills in my pockets
got stars in my eyes
nothing ever gets to me
I’ve got a love that makes me weak at the knees
I’ve got a heart that beats so hard, baby it bleeds
but nothing ever gets to me
nothing ever gets to me
don’t underestimate me
I promise, baby I’ll be fine
got pills in my pockets
got stars in my eyes
nothing ever gets to me
settle
don’t you ever let dust settle on the things you love
or waste your precious thoughts on precious metals
and whether you’ve got enough
its not gonna make no difference, darlin
whether there’s gold in your grave
you’re so full of contradictions, darlin
that’s no way to behave
so lets drink to our wealth
to our diminishing health
lets ring in the new year
I won’t be the way that I was, dear
all the clocks are gonna wonder why
I’m no longer watching them spin
well as long as there are stars in the sky
I don’t need the time on my wrist
where’s the wild light behind your eyes
it gets dimmer by the day
and it used to be so goddamn bright
I saw it from miles away
so lets drink to our wealth
to our diminishing health
lets ring in the new year
I won’t be the way that I was, dear
streetlights
I will stay outside till the sun comes up
not keeping track of time or if I’ve had too much
I’ll drink the bottle dry without an ounce of guilt at all
and I will feel just fine in the morning when you call
I wanna leave the city for a night or two
forget my troubles and lay under the stars with you
oh I do
I hear the mountains are lovely this time of year
but I’d go anywhere if it was with you, my dear
I’ll leave the lights on so I can watch you dream
and when you stretch and yawn I will brew your tea
I love the way you talk when you’re half-asleep
I love the way you walk when you walk next to me
I wanna leave the city for a night or two
forget my troubles and lay under the stars with you
oh I do
I hear the mountains are lovely this time of year
but I’d go anywhere if it was with you, my dear
I wanna live in a city with no streetlights
I miss the silence and the blanket of stars at night
city life aint right
I don’t
I don’t wanna know where you’ve been tonight, baby
I’m not gonna worry about where you’re gonna sleep
I don’t wanna know, no its driving me crazy
I don’t wanna know, no I’m not so weak
yeah I’m sure everyone’s so very
impressed with your new vocabulary
but they don’t measure clever in syllables
no its not just me being cynical
do you wanna get analytical
I can be pretty critical
I don’t wanna know where you’ve been tonight, baby
I’m not gonna worry about where you’re gonna sleep
I don’t wanna know, no its driving me crazy
I don’t wanna know, no I’m not so weak
you mask your ignorance with eloquence
you assert your unintelligence
an unrivaled sense of pretentiousness
and you’re still completely directionless
I can’t say that I’m surprised
all your years don’t make you wise
I don’t wanna know where you’ve been tonight, baby
I’m not gonna worry about where you’re gonna sleep
I don’t wanna know, no its driving me crazy
I don’t wanna know, no I’m not so weak
besides, you never meant that much to me
I don’t mind
fell fast asleep with your shoes on your feet
hanging over the edge of the foot of my bed
I was sat with my back breaking over my desk
with a pen in my hand and a sting in my chest
I fell in love with you as soon as your eyes closed
I realized I’d never seen eyes quite like those
I’m gonna drown in the deepest blues
I’ve got an ocean’s worth of feelings for you
twisting my neck so that you’d never catch
all the glances I threw to your side of the room
shifting my gaze to the words on the page
and praying under my breath I hadn’t bored you to death
crawled in to sleep and you laid next to me
and to my surprise, awoke to you still by my side
didn't know I loved you til I kissed you goodbye
now if I woke up without you, the sun wouldn't rise
so drink all my wine
I don’t mind, I don’t mind
forget your roots
sure is strange when your hometown
stops feeling like home
and nothing’s changed in your hometown
except the depth of your soul
it never rains in my hometown
to wash away my sins
I moved away from my hometown
I haven’t looked back since
are your bones trembling from the temperature change
is your ghost rattling the bars of its cage
I can’t breathe in this desert dust no more
I’ve never been more sure, I’ve never been more sure
I took my troubles down to Tennessee
laid them by the riverside
I’m gonna drown them in the Mississippi
lord knows I’ve tried
but when I dream of my hometown
nothing’s ever the same
somehow it feels like my hometown
with the scenery rearranged
are your bones trembling from the temperature change
is your ghost rattling the bars of its cage
I can’t breathe in this desert dust no more
I’ve never been more sure, I’ve never been more sure
grow your soul
when I was young, I would stare at the sun
in the hopes that my eyes could steal some of its shine
now that I’m older, my blood runs colder
I’m going blind, its no one’s fault but mine
I’ve been planting trees to grow my soul
but I don’t recognize these fingers as my own
in the mirror I share secrets with myself
and laugh at all the jokes that my reflection tells
bare feet at the bottom of the ocean
a stranger’s shoes are underneath my bed
while I leave the door to my room open
I swallowed the only keys that open up my head
I’ve been planting trees to grow my soul
but I don’t recognize these fingers as my own
in the mirror I share secrets with myself
and laugh at all the jokes that my reflection tells
oh the ice behind my smile
my misery is melting away
I’ve been planting trees to grow my soul
but I don’t recognize these fingers as my own
in the mirror I share secrets with myself
and laugh at all the jokes that my reflection tells
serotonin
I’m feeding all of my addictions
with a medical precision
I ponder my existence
I refill my prescriptions
there’s a chemical imbalance
to which I owe all of my talents
oh it used to be such a challenge
now they serve me serotonin by the gallons
but there ain’t a better inspiration
than all my lofty aspirations
no there’s no better motivation
than all their baseless accusations
yeah at my current elevation
I’ve got no need for validation
I’m staring down at constellations
maybe its all this medication
I’ve got a tendency towards dependency
a flaw in my brain’s chemistry
got a twitch no one else can see
from my trembling hands to my shaking knees
in the background of our conversation
I’m making subtle calculations
I’m counting every character
every letter in every word
but there ain’t a better inspiration
than all my lofty aspirations
no there’s no better motivation
than all their baseless accusations
yeah at my current elevation
I’ve got no need for validation
I’m staring down at constellations
maybe its all this medication
ALL SONGS WRITTEN BY CHRISTINA ALLBRIGHT
© 2017 BAD COYOTE MUSIC